The Monster Within Me

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The Monster Within Me
There is a monster within me. His name is Phil. These are the journal's that will record my battle with the monster and his attempt to keep me as a losing trader. But I will prevail and learn to control this monster within me. I will be a great trader, I will be in control of who I want to be.
I will SLAY THE MONSTER within me so that it can no longer control me and my thoughts.
By becoming an Observer of the self, I give authority to the Empowered parts, to be all I can become.

Brick by Brick

Monday, January 28, 2019

Jan 28 19

Trying to make this trading log journal a habit.  It is going to be hard I think.

Today Sim trading only confirms once again that -  moving stops is stupid, a bad idea, a good way to lose an account, a non disciplined way to trade, forming bad habits and just something, TO STOP DOING.
Just focus on taking 3 or 4 trades taking 2 pts each and call it a day for now.
What did I do today that will make me a better trader tomorrow ?
I have decided I can either find and listen to another mind coach and spent a ton of $ or just grow some balls and become a trade manager of my own account.
Having just talked to my other half about my fear of getting into trades. Well she mostly listened to me trying to get it all straight in my head- I suddenly realize that what I seem to be fearing is getting into a trade that may not be a positive experience. I think it may finally be sinking in my head that I am to just trade like a person in charge of trading a methodology that works. And be ok with (being wrong) on some trades. I feel like a alcoholic who has reached bottom and aware of what my problem is. Having looked in all kinds of other areas but avoiding the only thing that matters for now.
So what is my plan-
take 3 or 4 trades   be done before 10:00 am  and be ok with taking 10 trades win or lose. risking 2 pts per trade.  I trade my own stuff that works for me. and remind myself that I will usually be positive most days if I just Focus, Focus , Focus.





Friday, January 25, 2019

Jan 25 19 Friday

Second day of writing in Trading journal.  habit  !!

I found today somewhat frustrating.  it was a range day. Spend a lot of time guessing if  top and bottom of range box is going to hold.  I think fear of just not taking a chance on those edges is keeping me from my daily goal.  Need to realize that range box is what it is. they either hold of not. but some scalps to the middle will make up for when it b/o against me.

box 70-59  three pt stops and ride to the middle is what I need to remember on range days.
I need to clarify my entry set up on range days. so I don't feel like I am guessing.  get in at outer edges if it holds it holds if not  so what.

Thursday, January 24, 2019

trading Journal jan 24 2019

I made 5 trades today.  I followed and focused on my chart I made good trades today.  I am not sure what I need to start this daily trade journal. but just typing something  everyday is probably a good start.  I will focus on just typing daily about my trading. and figure out what I need to improve on as the days go by. I can see that having this open during the trading and writing down something after each trade. while things and thoughts are clear.
My new goal/habit to be-  write something everyday about my trades

Today I noticed that I let the trades go to my 2 pts target.
Today my journal is done.